30 Oct 2014


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

There will always be other people whose test is much bigger than you.

True enough.

Tadi IELTS Speaking part.
Cuak dia, mashaAllah.
Rasa macam...tak tahu macam mana nak describe.
Then, tiba -tiba Haziq dapat phone call.
Yang aku rasa dia takkan lupa sampai bila - bila.
Ayah dia meninggal.
Pergi yang takkan kembali.

Masa tu terus rasa macam blank.
Sedih untuk Haziq.
Lagi sedih tengok dia nangis.
Siapa cakap lelaki tak boleh nangis.
Boleh je. Boleh sangat.

Then, terfikir.
Apa sangat la speaking test kau syaza.
Nak banding dengan what he has to face.

May he be placed among the righteous.
May Haziq and his whole family be blessed with strength.
And there is no one that could give them such thing,
But you, O'Allah :')

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

27 Oct 2014

+ve Vibe

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

When I look around,
and I see how much blessing HE has showered upon me,
How much love over hatred that I have been receiving all this while.

am blessed. I feel like it.
and there is no reason for me to stop hoping.
and believing.

Good luck,
for the IELTS :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

25 Oct 2014

Maal Hijrah

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Kadang - kadang rasa macam kosong,
Tambah lagi bila sedar yang sebenarnya hakikat hidup ni kita sendiri,
Orang akan ada, sentiasa ada,
Cuma sampai bila kita boleh harap mereka untuk sentiasa ada.

Yang kekal nanti,
bila kau betul - betul susah,
bila manusia dah tak pandang lagi,
bila kau dah tak ubah macam sampah,
cuma Tuhan.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

15 Oct 2014

What a feeling.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

This is a story of mine.
Of a little bit confusion and guilt.
So, tonight, there was an ustaz coming over,
and he was giving a talk on ikhtilat, well he supposed to do a talk based on that particular topic.
but, he went on talking about other fields of knowledge such as aqidah, ibadah and even sirah.
Only Allah knows how hard i tried not to go bored and all because i cannot focus,
and tried not to even question why the topic seems to be diverged into something I cannot comprehend.

I know that everything that the ustaz said is not necessarily be the one that I expect,
I know that everything that he said was from Allah s.w.t and I was meant to listen to that,
I know how much the blessing that was showered on this very night when all the angel are there praying hard on us.

But, sadly, I go all over and just cannot control myself.
Sedih, sebab bila ustaz tengah cakap, i was like, apa yang ustaz cakap ni,
Sedih, sebab rasa macam diri kurang ajar sangat pertikaikan content ceramah even I did it without voice.
Lagi sedih bila syafwan cakap yang ustaz tu memang tinggi ilmu dia, means he is someone really close to Allah.

I was mad at myself and still is.
I could see how I can easily get distracted and influenced by the bad side of my own self.
And I don't know why I write this.
May be to remind myself so that things like this won't happen in the future.
so that I can have a better control of myself,
may be...

Do forgive me ya Rabb.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

8 Oct 2014


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

I often questioned myself, why did i do this and that.
and sometimes it is even harder to justify things that I have done.
but, today the question is literally answered.

Ustaz kamal cakap,
kalau kita terfikir nak buat jahat, ingat yang walaupun sekecil - kecil kejahatan, mungkin ianya akan buat Allah tak redha kat kita.
kalau kita terfikir nak buat baik, jangan persoalkan niat kita, kerana walaupun kebaikan sekecil zarah sekalipun, mungkin dia la yang buat Allah redha kat kita :)

thanks ipah :)

p/s: IB is drowning me down but, hey, now i can learn how to swim better *grin*

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's


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