24 Dec 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

11 days to go,
and i don't really know how i supposed to feel right now,
nor i understand what the future is meant for me,
People say that sometimes we must give in other to gain,
to sacrifice in order to ensure that le efforts will not be in futile,
People say that everything will fall into places,
if and only if we keep the flame on,
And i say, it is easier said than done.

11 days to go,
i wish that i had spent my holiday wisely,
i wish..

11 days to go,
To start all those terrifying experience all over again,
To ensure that i would have the opportunity to broaden my horizon soon,
To literally enhance my working,soft skills.
And i believe,
Dreams would come into reality,
And all i need is just to believe.

11 days to go,
Tickets are bought,
Seremban is waiting,
And KMS is missing me,
I know...

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

24 Nov 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Don't blame me if I fall for you,
for there is nothing to be lost,
the dignity that worth sacrificing?
it is a total crap.

Just a moment in my life,
that i had ever think of being serious.
but the time is not yet to come,
sorry,but waiting could be the best alternative here,
waiting for no one to come and hold this two hands,
walking together to the end of the path,
reach the heaven with endless blessing,
ponder upon you and me,
Mr. unknown...

#just in case there are few people reading this,don't take it seriously, for i am just ranting.
##biology is currently driving me nuts. seeking for strength in the midst of hardship :)

May Allah ease :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

22 Nov 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Now that i realize what is the hidden meaning,
Laying beneath the words you utter,
And the reality hit me like a bolt.
I am sorry to be such a late-catcher,

Dulu, waktu kau dengan muka tak ada rasa beritahu,
Supaya wajah ini perlu manis.
Walau susah macam mana pun.
Walau hati kat dalam dah tak boleh dibaca riaknya.
Satu yang kau selalu lontar.

Dan waktu itu akulah yang paling...
Aku salah tafsir, maaf.
Tapi,jujur la, apa kau rasa bila orang tu sampai depan mata,
and the only thing that would always came over the mouth is,

Tapi sekarang aku dah faham.
Senyum boleh bikin manusia lemah jadi badang,
hati rapuh jadi kukuh,
Tak rugi satu sen pun,
Sunnah nabi s.a.w lagi :)


Thanks untuk kau,
Aku bahagia bila tengok kau ceria.
Moga Tuhan sentiasa merahmati,
seiap usaha dan hari-hari kau,sahabat.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

19 Nov 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

The best word to describe the person whose heart easily touched,
Broken to the worst figure,never can be mend.
Seeking for better-half that is impossible to come,
Without HIS will.

I wonder,
Why it is so hard to accept the reality that we are no longer the same,
To adapt to the surrounding that doesn't feel like home at all,
To be in the other part of Earth and pretending that we love it to our heart content.

Open your eyes people,
Let your mind be free of those heart wrenching circumstances,
It is faith that could save the calmness,
Only and if only we have it close to our soul,
It will brings thousands of perseverance that could beat million of side-matter.

O' Allah,
Could not thank you enough for letting me into this world of IB,
I may not be the best out of the best intelligent people over here,
But I could promise one thing.
I will come here and fix all the things that were not going too well in this SEM 1,
I will encounter another chapter in my life with new spirit and whole new enthusiasm.
May You bless all my efforts,Ya Rabbi,
For it all is only a vain without your pleasure upon it.
Ease my way,Ya Rabb...

#Final exam mood on. 

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

12 Nov 2013

Arigataou :)

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Days come days go,
I should have said that time really flies,
It's the matter of being send to a place that may seems like a prison,
And yes it is; Only for ones that viewing from afar.
The reality might be hard,
But there are sweetness-es that come along.

Wallahi,sangat terharu bila Ed balik-balik je terus singgah bilik,
tanya whether i was doing good or not,
whether I had taken my lunch or not,
Sorry for causing troubles for you today.

And I'm beyond grateful to have roommates that actually care,
Thanks guys.
We might not be that close but the attention that you pay means a lot to me *hugs
Dan comel je tengok Jiha berlari sambil tanya 'Syaza OK?'
For my group members for tomorrow IOP, we'll rock it together,hoyeah!
Nantikan kemunculan kami, pelakon drama tak berbayar yang digeruni ramai ;)

May Allah ease everything,
Best wishes for your past/ soon coming final exam,
Do pray for me and my fellow buddies :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

31 Oct 2013

Growing up

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Am wondering on how on earth do I get to be here?
Am asking, Would i survive till the end?
What will happen if i won't be able to make it?
Disaster at its best...

Seeing others performing well doesn't help,frankly speaking.
Lagi ketaq lutuq lagi ada ;)
Oh yeaa~ selfie,don't have to pretend anymore..
They won't care, it's all about you and how you manage your own self.
What goes around comes around,no?

Nurture the best quality of of us,
Be decent,
Be a good servant of HIM,
That's it..
May it all worth it :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

23 Oct 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Berkat,rajin, disiplin.
"If you hold tightly to this three elements in life,you could survive even when they throw you in horrendous flood and there is no other places that could save you,you'll make it to the end, even for your fight in IB" ~ super-super senior.

We need the blessing to make it work,anything.
The blessing from beloved parents,
Teachers and friends,try hard not to hurt their feeling.
And above all, strive for Mardhatillah, HIS ultimate blessing.

And the diligence together with discipline would always come together.

" Study smart je tak cukup even most of the people said so,you must study hard as well"

~oh yeeeaaa :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

20 Oct 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Hidup atas expectation orang amat sakit,
tahu kenapa?
sebab kau yang pilih untuk jadi begitu,
nak semuanya perfect di mata orang?
ketahuilah kau takkan mampu.

Hidup ni tujuannya,untuk please Allah,
bukan untuk please homosapien semata.
Mereka-mereka yang kadangnya hadir atas asbab ujian.
Ujian dari DIA kepada kita.
Benar,hablun minallah wa hablun minannas tu kena bergerak selari,
tapi tak bermaksud segala benda yang terjadi kena ikut garis hidup,dan mata mereka.
Rasa hati kita dan tujuan hidup nak ke syurga tu kena dahulukan juga,no?

Tahu kenapa hari-hari semenjak ni rasanya hambar,
tawar tak berwarna,
Tahu kenapa bila nak study je rasa stuck,
rasa yang segala intelligence dah disuck out,habis,
yang tinggal hanya memori separa karat je.
Tahu kenapa?

Mungkin sebab kehidupan sehari dua ni,niatnya terpesong,
macam tadi, life for human is dull,
The excitement is just not there,kalau ada pun sekejap cuma.
Dan mungkin juga sebab terlalu risaukan masa depan,
ynag jalannya masih lagi terdampar luas tapi tak mampu lagi diterokai,
sebab masanya belum tiba...


Allah hantar saat-saat yang mana kita kena buat deal dengan diri sendiri ni
agar kurangkan buat perkara lagha kat fb,
minimize masa kat blog *dush dush
bual kosong tanpa isi,
masa berlalu tapi... fikir sendiri....
sebab dia nak kita fokuskan semula hala tuju hidup.
Ingat umi baba,
Ingat duit rakyat yang kau tengah guna sekarang.
Dan ingat the ultimate goal now and forever.
Redha Allah, dan jannahnya yang satu.

moga terus kuat,
dan aku tahu kau boleh :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

2 Oct 2013

Lets start all over again

In the name of Allah,the most gracious,the most merciful.

We are human, so of course we make mistakes,
Get used to it,it's normal to make such things in life,
Indeed,we learn from the past.
The determination that we have actually mends us into a better person,

I don't wanna talk about success,
itu rahsia Allah,
I don't  even have the desire to judge others based on what they are,nonetheless the old them,
Just give us another chance,
To decide on whatever path we're about to take.. 

Everyone has a past, everyone lives a present, everyone deserves a future ~ hlovate

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

26 Sep 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

We may not believe or even aware that every single one of us is actually a leader.
A leader for the whole society,
or in a smaller context among our friends in college,
and the obvious yet unnoticeable is for our own self,
Quoted Anisah,being a leader is not easy,not easy at all,
It requires sacrifices from the leader himself,
as well as from the supporters.

A leader without le' supporters is like a tree without its root,
Useless and soon to be died. Pointless.
I am not the right person to be referred when it comes to leadership matters,
I screwed up before,and am not gonna make it happen ever again.
I am a leader,for my own self.
And i believe in this;
to live well or live hell. I choose :)
 WE choose.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

23 Sep 2013

Short 1

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Life is getting better nowadays,alhamdulillah.
Endless internal assessments,
Not-gonna-be-done-soon English rationale,
Written assignment waiting to be think of,
Not-that-bad- yet not-satisfying results,
Long way to go CAS log and reflection,
Daunting task, homeworks,
Self perception, Fading motivation,
What else?

Kerna aku tahu aku mampu,
Dan kau juga :)

May Allah Ease Our Way :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

18 Sep 2013

Le' Damsel in distress

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Currently searching for knight in shining armor.
But,it's kind of impossible to find one. haha
Jujurnya, perjalanan 2 months and counting ini menyimpan memori yang agak banyak.
Kisah orientasinya, roomates punya cerita, hikayat classmate yang masing-masing punya perangai yang berbeza.
Setiap satu jadi peneman diri di sini.
Kalau cakap diri ni happy je semedang,tu memang tipu.
Stress tu biasa,senang cerita. So,kena pandai cari escapism.

run from reality.it's ain't killin'

Jalan ke taman, melantak kat CP dengan hanan, baca novel tak kisah BM atau BI punya version,
Tak pun tidur.
Tapi,you know what, after all,there's one thing that will sooth me down whenever i feel miserable, that kind of feeling when everything seems so wrong...it's surau.
Bukan nak kata yang diri ini budak baik,kerja pergi surau je hari-hari. Tak. Dan sesungguhnya sangat malu dengan kenyataan ni.
Tapi kat sana,there's something so special,
its serenity,the videos they show, the talks.
Thanks Allah for blessing me with a path that not every one is able to walk in.
Walaupun susah,i'll find the way. We'll find the way,together :)
Kerna Allah takkan menguji hambanya melebihi apa yang mereka mampu tanggung. Itu pasti.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

3 Sep 2013

Endless Flaws

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Seriously,I miss the feeling I'd when I stand on the stage,staring at people I don't really know,
Those strangers  instead of being a fear factor for me,they end up being the best supporter ever who
 have their own way in showing gratitude for anyone who's standing anxiously on stage,
you'll never know how much your smile means to us,
your never know the feeling we have within ourselves when a round of applause given at the end of the speach.
the satisfaction,the sense of victory,the glory.
you'll never note the excitement and the guts that we must have for there's a sacred desire of being heard,
you'll never feel the adrenaline rush when words are being uttered with the help of high self-confidence,
Unless you try it yourself.
Take a bite from my plate,swallow and speak.

Allah,bring my old self back,please,
i miss being the old me.
the one full of spirit and Esperanza.

Allah takkan mengubah nasib hambanya melainkan dia sendiri yang usaha - unknown

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

30 Aug 2013

Little Girl Beneath

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Little did I know that there's a part in myself that makes me crave to be someone little girl again.
To go back to the decade where there was nothing to worry about,
absolutely nothing to think of.
To actually lying on grass,laughing for silly jokes made by the boy next door,
To be with my parents all day long, trying my best to catch their attention,
be it my childish demeanor or creepy tears,they were all out to end it up,
How I wish I could turn into that person again,
Truth bites,true. And hard reality is hard.
Wake up,little girl. Stop dreaming :'(

It's nothing. I just miss my parents.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

25 Aug 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

No. LV here doesn't stand for the cool,exclusively-branded handbag or what so ever.
It is actually lovable companion,the one that we feel comfortable to be with,
Easier said,it's friends. Not only just normal,for-fun kind of friends,
but those who understand us the best,
those who ready to sacrifice their times only to listen to the whole craps we utter,
those who knows how to appreciate us by action and words,

I just want you to know, I honestly grateful to encounter a chapter in my life which is filled with such wonderful friends. Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah :')
And I may be distracted by work loads from day to day that i don't even have a space to call some of you,but do bear in your mind, your place in this heart are going nowhere despite the distance that part us away..

To those lovable companion,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

23 Aug 2013

He knows

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

For every silent weep we made,
For every little things that others won't see,
For every sacrifices that fall beyond our ability,yet we made it,
.........................He knows..........................

He knows every single one of them.
Maybe we are not yet to see the truth that actually hidden beneath the pain we have to face,which sometimes make us feel like there 're no more hope for us days ahead.The bitterness of life seems to be terrifying while everything looks as if it's time to move on,without feet being ready to do so.
Static. Weak. Disable. Hurt.

But,still He knows,
Don't ever lose hope on HIM.
He's Ar-rahman,He's Ar-rahim.
He loves us more than anyone could, even more than what we expected.
So,when a total mess happen,just hold on,stop for a while, and think..

He loves me,
I ask him for strength...
And he gives me problems to solve...
And throughout the journey of my life,I make mistakes and i learn from them,
For all the experiences I gain, I became a new person, a stronger one,
In sha Allah

May Allah bless their effort to sustain and protect the ad-deenul haq.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

21 Aug 2013

Of wisdom and sacrifices

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Another post at almost mid-night. Am not a sleeping beauty anymore,lol ;)

Well,I actually just found out that not everything in our lives are meant to be sacrificed for the sake of others. There are things that actually existed for us to cherish,not to let it go to others' hands,who perhaps will never bother to treasure them. Yes,of course I am not telling you to keep everything that are yours private,and to keep others out of it reach. Just be smart and make a better choice.
And not to be left out,let crave for Allah's guide.

May HE bless us and show the right path :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

20 Aug 2013

Not-that-Late Nite mumble

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

2 years may past really fast,of course time do flies.

Human makes mistakes and somehow,it's hard to admit it. That's why Allah send us people that are meant to accompany us,to guide us through all those hardship that could tear our heart apart. Verily,after each difficulties there's relief. Verily,after each difficulties there's relief.
Verily,after each difficulties there's relief..
Allah's words can't never go wrong :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

28 Jul 2013

I am grateful,really am

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Being selfish,ignorant and self-centered are not even a  mere choice for us. Yes,there are times when we feel like throwing up all the anger we have within. The feeling of dissatisfy that everything goes wrong. Things happening the opposite way from what we want them to be.  And,yes we can show the anger but not by doing something out of sense. Bear in mind that we can only plan but the one who decide is Allah. Indeed,he's the best planner after all.

To be here in the midst of Ramadan,
Thanks Allah :)
For every calamity that fall beyond expectation,
Thanks Allah :D
Behind every perception,there's limit.
The limit that none of us are able to acquainted.
Only HE knows :)

I can never thank Him enough for everything He has blessed me with.
Alhamdulillah ya Rabb :)

One thing, 3 words, Infinite satisfaction
Pray for Egypt

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

25 Jul 2013

Path of Faith

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Do you ever feel like be in the crowd but the only one you see is you.
Do you ever feel so miserable to a point where you couldn't take it anymore.
Do you ever feel like you have give the best out of you but people keep ignore the truth.
Do you?
Did you?

I wonder why such feeling sort of arising throughout my days,bothering me not to be optimistic in what ever things I've to finish. It's not exactly what I've to deal with right now,but yes,it got something to do with it. Something I couldn't find the 'cure' yet,but I will,in sha Allah :)

You know what,people here converse in English as if it's their mother-tongue language. I find it kinda hard for me to even catch up to the topics they discuss. Yeah,I might do well in my SPM English  and  I might even scored my GCE-O Level,but it doesn't means that I could communicate in English fluently,but again I believe that things will get better from now on. Allah doesn't send me here for no reason right! Have faith in him and pull the socks on,that's what i should be doing by right.

No worries,All is well here. And I mean it. 

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

9 Jul 2013

Settling down in progress

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Tomorrow will curve a history.
First day of Ramadhan without family by side. Comes again,le' beginning is always the hardest.
But Allah the most gracious,the most merciful will never leave me in despair of not knowing what is gonna happen. He sent my families whom I dearly love away so that I'll be an independent survivor in this land of him. And he replace them with great people around. Yes,I have to admit that the seniors are nice,ready to help us whenever we need them the most. The guys are cool,beautiful ladies here and there. The teachers (yes,we call lectures as teachers,lol) also welcome us with open arm and honestly,I felt grateful to be here.

To Group N0 3 *MAVERICKS*
You guys rock! I'm really impressed with every single person that belong to my group. Even I was not that helpful,and could be blurred most of the time, they were able to make me feel like... I belong to the group. Ed,Fara Squared,Wanie,Tikah,Aida,Dee,Najat,Aiesya,Rebecca,Khaliq,Aiman,Afiq,Abbas,Megat, Yusuf,semua-semua la.. Thanks for being such an awesome groupmates! May Allah bless you guys.

May This Ramadhan Brings Us Delightful Moments To Be Shared Together.
Ramadhan isn't about starve our body off,but to feed your soul with amal jariah.
Happy Fasting!

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

30 Jun 2013

Of Everything

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Bila direnung kembali perjalanan cuti selama +/- 7 bulan ini, seriously,i don't even realize that time could flies this fast. Yeah,time really flies. Teman sahabat semua dah selamat menjejakkan kaki ke RnR seterusnya. Well,kan semuanya menghala ke destinasi yang satu. Sana. Alam sana yang abadi. Nak sampai ke sana tu memang memakan masa,yang beza cuma cepat atau lambat. Yang lambat bererti banyak RnR yang disinggah.Menambah bekalan,mungkin :)

Of friends' latest news
Really hope that maleen is doing fine there in KMpk eventhought  it might be a harsh moment for her.
Say what,the beginning is always the hardest.
Sangat hajat Alya mampu untuk stay strong nun jauh di kedah. What a relief when i finally heard from her.
Ilham pulak,yeah,I have to say that the road that she choose today determine where her next footprint,her everything in future.And I know that she is  more than capable to do so.
Kawan-kawan yang lain,i hope that they are keeping well despite of the whole crappy moments at their very on college.

Of families' business
Alhamdulillah,kak zua (cousin)  dah dapat tukar ke semenanjung. Honestly,dah tak sanggup tengok dia berjauhan dengan anak yang baru +/- 6 bulan. Berjauhan dengan suami,keluarga semua. It must be a hard time for her,but,alhamdulillah she survives till this day :)

And finnaly,

Of my personal life update
Malam ni malam terakhir kat rumah. Amacam seram tak? haha. Feeling tu,macam biasa, tak boleh dikenal pasti. Mix feeling yang pasti. Excited bercampur dengan risau serta cuak membentuk hormon badan yang tak berapa nak seimbang. Estrogen,progesterone,testosterone. Eh? perempuan mana ada hormon testosteron la*masuk silibus bio jap,hee.  Esok dah nak bertolak ke Puchong. Bergelandangan la kami di rumah ayah D sebelum ke seremban pulak on the day after tomorrow. Kolej Mara Seremban,here I come!

I am all aware that IB will not be that easy,
naah,not easy at all,
some people even call it dementor,scary much,ey?

Go syaza,you sure can do it!
Dan,sangat hajatkan doa kalian,
doakan saya ya :)
May Allah possess us with his blessing,Amin.

pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

4 Jun 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Leaving school means that we should be ready for something new.

Kalau dulu aman bahagia je pakai uniform putih-biru,hitam through and through,biru air laut, sekarang it won't be the same.

Kalau dulu ikut sedap hati je menjawab  mulut cikgu sampai pernah cikgu merajuk tak nak masuk kelas,sekarang,no,please grow up,don't be so childish,eliminate sikap suka cakap ikut hukum sendiri.

Kalau dulu sakan bergelak ketawa,bergumbira 24 jam sehari,sekarang dah mula masuk alam baru,alam yang memerlukan kepala dihentak ke dinding bagi melegakan ketegangan berpanjangan*ok,hiperbola -_-

Kalau dulu hubungan lelaki dan perempuan seolah tak ada yang membataskan kerana usia muda sentiasa jadi alasan,sekarang kita kena pandai jaga diri,world not gonna do any harm to us,unless we start it first.

Naaaah. Dahpun membebel panjang. So,it's better for me to cut the crap. So,kawan-kawan yang dah atau akan menjejakkan kaki ke institusi pengajian yang lebih tinggi (tinggi sebab mostly terletak atas bukit -_- ),this entry is special for you.

Untuk sahabat seperjuangan 5 tahun di bumi SMK Machang,

5 sc1 2012 (maaf kabur)

Kelas yang teruk dihentam oleh semua guru. Mostly cakap yang 5sc1 2012 dengan budak tahun ni bagai langit dengan bumi. But yeah,we all made it until SPM. Keputusan SPM pelbagai. Dan,honestly,amat berharap yang result tu tak kan menjauhkan kita semua. We all are the same,nothing's different. Semua ada mata 2,some people got 4 eyes,haha. Hidung satu je semua kan. So,sama je la.Yang membezakan kita cuma takwa kita kepadaNYa. Oh,btw,hai,apa khabar iman semua? Sihat?

Dan untuk sahabat 2-months-but-i-hope-it'll-last-forever sms hulu terengganu,

30 orang straight As. Not bad buddies. Dan ada yang bakal fly,so best wishes from me. Seriously,Sahut banyak buat aku berfikir. No,bukan banyak,terlampau banyak. Tu yang sampai jadi hypertension tu,hahaha. And alhamdulillah, i learn a lot from there. 2 months may seems like a short duration of time but,in my point of view,it such a long journey with joy and pain altogether. Thanks for that experience.

Khas buat sahabat zaman hingusan,anak-anakan dan yeah,teman main berebut tiang
SK Pangkal Gong.

Maaf,hanya ini gambar yang ada. You know what,it's wonderful to know how fast time flies. We are all the grown up teenagers nowadays. Dan menoleh kebelakang dan melihat semula pencapaian kita bersama,it's a moment i'll treasure for my entire life. Thanks menjadi tulang belakang selama ni. Thanks mejadi penyumbang memori masam-manis-pahit-kelat-tasteless zaman kanak-kanak.

All in all,selamat maju jaya semua. Moga kita membesar dan mengembang serta menggembung dan menjadi orang yang berguna. Bukan untuk yang lain selain untuk agama,bangsa dan negara kita. Selamat berjuang menjadi anak-anak soleh-solehah semua. Selamat berkejaran menuju cita-cita yang satu,ke arah syurga firdausi.

May Allah Bless

Pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

28 May 2013

It's game time!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

A lot of things had been playing over and over again in my mind. Nak luah,tapi tak tahu macam mana. Susah juga kan? Ingatkan nak make a wish-you-best-of-luck-entry untuk kawan-kawan yang dah menjejakkan kaki ke matrik dan ipta,tapi,err,lepas ni la ya! I promise,in sha Allah. Kalau tulis masa ni mungkin mengundang kecelaruan sebab bahasa fikiran dan jiwa yang rumit masih belum mampu dibaca. Sorry. Btw, I've been tagged by sis kira astech. Thanks! Macam ramai dah blogger yang play this kind of  i-tag-you-you-tag-me-back game. So,yeah,why not we just give a shoot and have fun with it :)

The rules are :
  1. post this rules 
  2. write 11 things about yourself
  3. answer the question the tagger set for you
  4. create 11 questions for those whom you want to tag
  5. choose 11 blogger and link this post to them
  6. you are not allowed to tag back

And here we go. 11 random facts about me :
  1. Miss inner conflict through and trough.
  2. I love to sleep and i don't know why.haha
  3. Don't know how to pronounce the word 'sayang' . It just me being too awkward,kot.
  4. Struggling to be a better person since i never satisfied with the one i am this day.
  5. Not a story-teller. Prefer to be a listener though.
  6. Sangat cuak dengan kenderaan yang bergerak. I figure it out during my driving lesson.haha
  7. A fierce oldest sister with three cheeky brothers. Saya bukan ah long,saya cuma kak long ;)
  8. Blur most of the time and could be unpredictable sometimes.
  9. Sangat tak suka menunggu and I hate it when people are waiting for me.
  10. If i found something is awesome,i'll work for it,sampai berjaya. Only if it's real owesome,macam addmath ;)
  11. Tak tahu nak describe kebaikan diri. See all those 10 statements above,only a few of them is positive. Thus,i'm not really an optimistic kind of person.

Question from Kira Astech:

1. What is the one most embarrassing thing you have ever done?
    Huh? I guess it's better for me to not to reveal it here. It just way too embarrassing. Haha

2. Do you have any addictions?
    Oh yeah. Hlovate and novels and books and...yeah i'm a nerd and i know it :)

3. What do you hate most about yourself?
     My serious hair-fall problem*sigh

4. What do you want to change about yourself?
    Nothing. Err,actually there is one thing. My sometimes-too-outspoken-habit which tends to happen
    when i'm in cloud nine.

5. Do Have Any Type Of Bad Habit?
    Sleep-overdose. haha

6.Name a movie or movies you can watch over and over?
   The Hunger Games,believe it or not :)

7.Do you like to read? If so...favorite book(s)?
    Yeah, all books by Hlovate. La Tahzan by Dr. AIdh Abdullah Abqari and Denyut Kasih Medik  by
     Dr. Farhan Hadi.

8. Would you rather be smart and ugly or dumb and beautiful?
     The first choice. Cantik saja tapi tak ada self confidence tu tak complete. Tak boleh cari makan
      dengan jadi model. caution! muslimah model only,hahaha.

9. What is your favorite scent?
     Hmm. Must be bau hospital. Don't ask me why :)

10.What kind of girls/boys are you attracted to?
     Attractive? haha. Every person has his own uniqueness and yes,beauty lies in the eyes of beholder.
     So,i don't defined what kind of boy i'd ever dreaming for.

11.What is the scariest experience you ever had?
      Apabila dapat tahu bahawa skema BM paper 1 SPM strict yang amat. bhahahaha.

And soalan cepu emas daripada saya berbunyi (cepu emas la sangat) :
  1. Favourite song at the moment? 
  2. Given anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?
  3. What musical instrument can you play/would like to play?
  4. What are you obsessed with?
  5. What is your biggest fear? 
  6. What’s the greatest accomplishment of your life? 
  7. For what in your life do you feel most grateful? 
  8. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? 
  9. Any songs that remind you of you?
  10. When was the last time you said “thank you"
  11. What’s your best and most memorable childhood story?

 tagging time :
  1. http://addasyuhadadisini.blogspot.com/
  2. http://dhirastories.blogspot.com/
  3. http://norminieza.blogspot.com/
  4. http://nurnaa-irah.blogspot.com/
  5. http://iniceritaciksmile.blogspot.com
  6. http://eyraofficial.blogspot.com/
  7. http://dianaazisworld.blogspot.com/
  8. http://ziqanuar.blogspot.com/
  9. http://nursyifazizah.blogspot.com/
  10. http://simplyen95.blogspot.com/
  11. http://pandamatalebam.blogspot.com/
 Sangat berbesar hati sekiranya these fellow bloggers could answer those questions. And,yes,nak mengaku ni, soalan tu diceduk daripada mr.google. Sebab I malas nak fikir,hehe. Sorry if they may sound irritating,I'm more than glad to know your answers,gal. Last but not least,happy holiday!

pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

14 May 2013

My Ummi

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Dia wanita yang all-rounded. Well,at least for me. Honestly,she's not that expert in cooking which explains why i'm having much difficulties when it comes to cook (diri yang tangan kayu,salahkan umi pulak...grrr). Tapi,untuk saya,walaupun masakan ummi adalah simple yang amat,it's still the meal that i would craving for,and forever will be. Ummi tak pandai nak masak ikan 10 rasa ke apa,tapi she still do her best to feed us,anak-anak yang memang kerjanya kebulur setiap masa. Haha. And i'm grateful for that.

all time inspiration

Ummi works as a teacher. And she's really close with her student,I could see that. Some of them even call her mak,ummi,mummy,ntah apa-apa lagi la. Haha. Her sense of humour makes us feel comfortable when we converse with her. As a mom,memang la kadang-kadang ketegasan dia tu agak 'over the limit' di mata saya,seorang anak bawah umur yang belum kenal hakikat dunia ni. Ya,remaja yang kadangnya konon mengerti semua benda walhal sangatla noob in certain things. That's me :)

Ada yang cakap,ketegasan tu mengalir dalam darah ini juga. But,the fact is i'm not as firm as her,and i wish i could be that firm for good. I really wish.  And I remember I had this one conversation with my aunt. She asked me a question that hits me for awhile.

Kenapa kak tak macam umi? Dulu masa baba tak balik kelantan lagi,umi kena buat segalanya. Dan dia survive. 

And you syaza,you couldn't even survive for your jpj test,lingkup buat kedua kalinya..Haha..(but i make it on my third test,finally). Seriously,i don't know how my life would be without her. And i don't even wanna know.

My dear Ummi,
i wanna you to know,
i love you even i never told you that,
i don't know why,but i feel awkward to do so,
it's not your fault that i grew up and be this-me,
it's mine and i've to deal with it somehow,
and i don't want to do that without your help,
and your endless love and dua's,

forgive me for all my wrong doing,
forgive me for being so helpless sometimes,
forgive me for being this ignorant-syaza,
forgive me so that i could have HIS barakah with me all along my journey,

There is no other women that could replace you in my heart,
It was there,still is and in sha Allah,forever will be,
Thanks for everything,i love you ummi :)

your scruffy lil child,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

7 Apr 2013

kita kawan...kan?

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Above all,excuse me for using 'aku' this time.
this post is dedicated for all my beloved friends,best buddies to be specific.

I watched ABPBH. Naaa. It's not about their attire or what so ever. Oh,wait! Congrats to Shaheizy Sam for winning that award. Honestly,i'm not a big fan of him,but,somehow i really adore his loves and passions towards his mom. Lari tajuk kejap tak apa kan,Hehe.

Ok,back to the main point. Lagu Sahabat by NL feat sleeq masa malam anugerah tu reminds me of some memories...

Aku tak tahu nak cakap macam mana.
Maaf,kalau kau,kau dan kau rasa aku tak faham perasaan kau orang semua.
Maaf,kalau selama ni kau rasa aku letak gap antara kita.
Maaf,kalau kau rasa aku tak pernah ambil peduli pasal jatuh bangun kau selama ni.
Aku cuma nak kau tahu,aku dah cuba yang terbaik untuk tak wujudkan sebarang jurang antara kita.
But,still it seems like i fail,again :(

Kau ada dikala ku suka
Dikala ku duka
setiap tangisan dan juga ketawa
Kau ada dikala ku perlu
setia menemaniku
Pegang erat tanganku bila aku jatuh


Kau lah yang selalu
Selalu menemaniku
Mendengar kisah pahit manis
Hidup ku

Kau lah yang di situ
Setia menunggu ku
Kau lah yang satu
Menjadi sahabatku 

Kalau betul kau anggap aku kawan,
tolong la jangan ada sikit pun rasa malu untuk spill out your feelings with me,
trust me,i could be your best crying shoulder ever,if you allow me to do so.
i might not be a good storyteller,but,i tried my best to be a good listener to you guys.
i'll be listening,no matter how bad the situation is,
trust me,i won't leave u alone.

Kalau satu masa nanti aku dah tak ada untuk dengar segalanya,
Allah still ada,DIA kan sentiasa ada.
Untuk kau,
untuk aku,
untuk kita :)

Aku harap aku tak perlu ulang hal yang sama banyak-banyak kali..

pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

26 Mar 2013

novel review : versus by hlovate

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Seriously,i have to thank versus for being so unique yet easy-to-read novel that i fall in love with hlovate's writing right after reading it. Kalau ada yang tak tahu who's the hlovate that i'm talking about,refer here. Saya ada tulis pasal dia kat situ. Hoyeah,i'm big fan of her and proud to be one :)

walaupun kelihatan sedikit poyo,she's a huge fan of an amazing author :)

Back to Versus,novel tu bukan naskah picisan yang senang-senang kita nak doubt it's contain. It just too precious to be ignored. Kisah Minn Edina buat saya rasa bersyukur sangat-sangat yang saya tak perlu berada kat tempat dia. Kisah dia juga buat saya akur bahawa the hardest battle is when you are against your own self. Believe me,it's not that easy. Not easy at all. Perang psikologi. Antara kemahuan dan iman. Antara suka dan derita. She's being jaded in the middle all the time. And no doubt,i adore her for being so strong. Dari gadis skater yang urban inside out into a hijabbed muslimah yang pakai t saiz xxxL. It cost her blood and tears to change,but still,it worth all the sacrifices she've to go through.
Dan Asyraff Omar*betul ke eja macam ni,heheh*, that one guy really amazed me. Walaupun kalah dari segi generosity kepada Benz Aliff dalam aA+bB, AO tetap ada aura dia sendiri.  Mempunyai karakter yang agak poyo pada mulanya,he turns into somebody that we could count on. Tak siapa sangka yang hidayah Allah tu datangnya dalam pelbagai cara. Tak siapa sangka yang bila kita tercampak ke negeri orang,yang mana melayu islam hanya boleh dibilang dengan jari,kita boleh jadi muslim yang lebih baik. Walaupun dari segi logiknya,of course kat tanah melayu kita ni lagi banyak program agama sebab rata-rata penduduknya Islam,tapi kuasa Allah we'll never know,kan. He always knows what's the best for us :)

Untuk tatapan semua,here's the synopsis. Mana tahu ada yang terbuka hati nak baca buku ni after this. It comes in handy for those who want to change into a better person. And those people are us, in sha Allah :)

“Please, Minn. Bukak tingkap bilik you.”“Huh?”“I’m freezing right outside your window. On the roof.”Minn tegak dari baringnya, telefon bimbit masih di tangan.You what?”"No kidding. Please...” balas Ashraff Omar.Mata Minn menala ke tingkap yang ditutupi langsir. Putus fius ke apa mamat ni."Enough of your tricks, AO.”“Minn, I’m dead serious.”Ashraff Omar berdiri di atas bumbung porch rumah Minn Edina.“Minn, you nak bagi I masuk atau you nak tengok I jatuh?”

“Not a step away from that spot, AO.” Keras suara Minn Edina.“Minn, you tahu I takkan sentuh you pasal I hormati you.”“Back. Off.”Ashraff Omar akur. Langkahnya ditarik kembali ke belakang.“I tak memaksa. I cuma meminta. I like you. I really really like you. I want to give us a chance. Permintaan I bukan untuk you terima I yang sekarang, tapi I yang akan change for good, for you and for me. For us. Boleh you bagi I peluang tu?”Hujan masih belum berhenti.

Dan Hlovate seperti biasa tak pernah lupa menyelitkan unsur islamik dalam setiap satu karyanya. "Al-Quran is the best balm ever",that's one of her words that still spark in my mind till this very day.And I couldn't agree more. Maaf kalau ada yang rasa saya agak 'berlebihan' in expressing my thought about her. Lain padang,lain belalang,ya! Saya faham yang tak semestinya apa yang saya suka,orang lain pun suka. And it's not a problem to me, and to you too since i believe,the differences between us actually unite us altogether,in sha Allah :)

pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

25 Mar 2013

Alhamdulillah,ya Allah :')

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

All praises to Allah s.w.t for every single thing he had blessed me with. 21 March  2013 tarikh keramat kami,warga ex-spm-victims. Seriously,i didn't know what was wrong with me on that thay. Perasaan equal to zero. completely,zero. Saya tak tahu nak expect apa. Cuma saya redha sepenuhnya. Whatever He gave me,i would except it with open heart,in sha Allah.

Baba demam.
umi tak lalu makan.
nenek cool semedang.
brothers yang kekal dengan kepoyoon  skala 8.
And me,tak tau nak describe macam mana.
conclusion: one big happy family =,= heheh
i owe you guys one big time :)

Keputusan saya? Rasanya tak perlu nak dihebahkan kat sini. Maaf,saya bukan poyo or result gempak or what so ever. Yang pasti,saya dapat apa yang saya nak. Dan in sha Allah,saya ada kelayakan untuk further my studies in the field that i've always dreaming for,alhamdulillah.

Untuk semua,
thanks for all you doa's.
thanks for supporting me all this while,
I know that you'll always got my back.
I appreciate it,thanks :)

thanks,oh Allah *speechless*

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

17 Mar 2013

Budak zaman sekarang

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

pada satu petang yang sekejap panas sekejap redup,seorang nenek memanggil cucunya yang sedang sibuk melayan facebook,blog,myheppi dan perkara-perkara sewaktu dengannya. Cucu tersebut dengan perasaan berat lagi malas lagi tak ikhlas  pun melangkah menghampiri neneknya.Si hati yang sedari tadi memerhati tingkah-laku tuannya,sedikit demi sedikit mencucuk jarum halus berisi tarbiyah. Tarbiyah  berbentuk sindiran skala rendah :)

Dalam hadis Sahih Bukhari, Kitab Tauhid, no. 7501, Allah berkata kepada malaikat pencatat amal,(terjemahan versi mudah),
"Kalau hamba-Ku niat nak buat jahat. Jangan catat! Kalau dia betul-betul buat, baru catat.  Kalau dia tak buat niatnya yang jahat tu, tulis 1 kebaikan."
"Kalau dia niat nak buat baik, tapi tak buatpun, tulis 1 kebaikan. Kalau dia betul-betul buat niat baiknya tu, tulis 10 hingga 700 kali ganda kebaikan."
Nah,lihat betapa pemurahnya DIA. Dengan hanya niat nak buat baik pun dah tercatat 1 kebaikan. Tu belum buat lagi tu. Membantu nenek pun kira kebaikan apa!

Maka,cucu tersebut pun pergi la menyahut seruan neneknya (menyahut seruan? pun boleh..bak kata Yuyu Zulaikha). Maka,selepas itu berlangsunglah sesi dialog ala-ala bahas ala parlimen antara nenek dengan cucu.

Nenek: Pergi tarik ampaian besi tu. Kasi letak tempat panas tu. Baru lekas kering.
Cucu:   Tak yah la nek,panas kejap je ni. Nanti mesti mendung balik. Lepas tu hujan pun turun.haaa
Nenek:  Mana hang tahu sat lagi nak hujan. Hang pakar pengkaji cuaca ka?
              (awat nenek speaking pakai accent kedah ni. bukan nenek orang klate ke? hehe)
Cucu:  Baik la nek..(berjalan gaya pasrah seolah-olah disuruh menikah dengan orang tak dikenali  
            padahal nenek suruh tarik ampaian besi je pun.)

Setelah beberapa minit kemudian...

Nenek: Awatnya hang pakat tarik ampaian tu lagu tu. Sengat benget. Dah la letak kat tempat teduh.
            Matahari pun tak nampak bayang.(Oh,accent kedah nenek ku masih tak hilang nampaknya) ;)
Cucu: Panas sangat la nek. Burn kulit orang nanti,sapa nak jawab? nenek nak bertanggungjawab? 
           (insert some kepoyoan di sini)
Nenek: ----diam beberapa ketika----
            Hang tu nenek suruh tarik menda alah tu kat tengah panas sikit pun dah mengadu panas la apa
           la. Hang tau dak,umi hang,umi ayu hang,ma hang, masa depa kecik-kecik dulu,lepas balik ja
           sekolah nenek suruh gi bendang padi tau dak. Dengan baju sekolah lecun dek peluh sebab baru
           balik sekolah tak sempat singgah rumah,sanggup ja berjemur tengah panas tolong atuk dengan
           nenek. Hang? Kalau nenek buat lagu tu kat hang,harus pengsan kat tengah bendang tu. Apalah
           nak jadi dengan budak zaman la ni...
Cucu: (Speechless sebab habis hujah dah nak lawan. Lagipun usul ni memang sah-sah dah tak daya nak
             lawan. Keputusan juri: nenek menang tanpa bertanding)


Saya tak tahu orang lain,tapi honestly,bagi saya,saya memang tak mampu nak lalui balik apa yang dah dilalui orang-orang zaman dulu. Tapi,saya sanjung ketabahan mereka. Saya kagumi sikap gigih,berdikari mereka. Mungkin ibu bapa mereka tak ramai yang berpelajaran. Majoriti ibu bapa mereka hanya bekerja dalam estet kelapa sawit,di sawah padi, ladang getah. Namun,mereka masih taat setia membantu selagi terdaya. Dan yang lebih saya kagumi,pelajaran tetap tonggak utama hidup mereka :)

I adore 'them' and I wanna be like them,but,when i look back at my effort these days, it isn't even half of what they have go through. It's a wake up call,syaza! Be grateful of what you have today and keep it up :)

pen off,

p/s : hadis Sahih Bukhari, Kitab Tauhid, no. 7501 dipinjam daripada fb ustazah Fatimah Syarha.
        Another great muslimah that i love to listen to.

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

14 Mar 2013

SPM result: 1 more week to go

Assalamualaikum w.b.t


Semalam (10/3/2013) buka Facebook. Terbaca satu statement dari seorang kawan.

This coming Wednesday is the day...
Seriously,mula-mula baca tu macam tak rasa apa-apa. Kut la abang dia nak tunang ke,nak pergi family vacation ke apa ke. Tapi bila go trough word by word tu baru la... Allah,result nak keluar hari Rabu depan dah? Macam mana boleh tak sedar yang 20/3 sebenarnya dah terlalu hampir. Selama ni memang dah dengar through kawan-kawan fb,blog yang the result will be released on 20 0f march tapi...tak pernah tahu yang 20 of march tu RABU DEPAN..

Perasaan sekarang ni? Bercampur aduk antara nervous,takut,seram(seram?). macam-macam la. Terjah blog kawan-kawan yang seangkatan,boleh katakan semua pun cuak. Mana taknya masa depan tu. Parents' and teachers' hope. Ditambah lagi dengan friends' expectation. Everything sums up into one word, worried.


News di facebook menular lagi. Dan tarikh yang terbaru ialah 21/3 pula. Saya? Confused dan malas nak ambik tahu dah. Tunggu dan lihat berita daripada tv dan akhbar. Yang sahih punya :)

Ya Allah,
Andai nanti keputusanku tidak seperti yang ku harapkan,
Kau tabahkan hatiku. Kau kuatkanlah semangatku.
Ya Allah,
Andai nanti aku berjaya mendapat yang terbaik,
Kau hijabkanlah hatiku daripada sifat riak,ujub dan takabbur.
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui :')

Dan untuk semua rakan batch95,
We have each other,right?
And obviously,we have HIM.
So,nothing to be worry :)


it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

9 Mar 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

MPD? Multiple Personality Disoder?
Yang baru stage satu rasanya.

Fasa 1:
depan orang luar kemain cakap berhemat. lemah lembut. sopan-santun. cuba dengan ahli keluarga sendiri. sangat susah untuk menuturkan kata dalam bahasa yang boleh diterima masyarakat. Dalam bahasa mudahnya,hormat.

Fasa 2:
hari isnin,boleh je nak bergelak ketawa bersama si A. selasa,layan dia macam tak kenal. tinggalkan dia macam dia outsider yang totally unrecognized. buat muka blank masa terserempak. Totally,definitely and honestly out of places.


Fasa 3:
............................masih dalam proses........................

tak faham? tak apa.
Jaga diri sendiri,jangan kasi kena MPD peringkat awal ni ya. Dan caution,MPD ini tidak ada dalam rekod Jabatan Kesihatan hatta segala hospital,klinik,pusat rawatan swasta mahupun rumah dukun-dukun sedunia. (senyum segaris)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

26 Feb 2013

Kahwin awal?

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Tengok tajuk pun dah rasa seram semacam. i'm a dead meat if my mom reads this entry. Ya Allah,minta jauh. Baba mesti luas punya nganga tengok anak dara dia punya la advance sampai dah masuk bab baitul muslim. Pegang penyapu pun jarang-jarang sekali, ada hati nak fikir pasal kahwin. haha

Nope,i'm not meroyan or what so ever. Cuma mungkin dah terlampau tak ada kerja. Kalau ada yang perasan,saya dah berhari-hari tak melaporkan diri kat blog ni. I'm just way too busy. Yeah,too busy sleeping,eating,watching movies,bla.bla.bla and the list goes on :)

I have a friend. Yang sama umur. Dulu sama-sama main sungai,polis sentri,bola 'pekong' mati (tak tahu la orang luar panggil apa). Dan sekarang dia dah kahwin. Kahwin pada usia yang pada saya memang masih muda. 17 years old. Dan sekarang dah hamil pun (senyum)

Masa dia nak kahwin dulu,boleh tahan heboh la satu kampung. Mungkin kes dia ni kes yang pertama seumpamanya kat kampung ni that people can't resist to get to know about this matter. Saya pulak memang tak boleh nak concentrate pasal ni sebab tengah berperang. Ya,berperang dengan paper,pen,liquid paper. Atau dalam bahasa mudahnya,tengah SPM.

 Melihat outsider yang sibuk duk pong-pang,pong-pang 'berdiskusi' pasal ni,saya terfikir. Apa motif sebenarnya mereka nak sangat ambil tahu. Adakah kerana tak nak dijadikan contoh terbaik bagi peribahasa begai enau dalam belukar,melepaskan pucuk masing-masing. Atau mereka sebenarnya masyarakat yang prihatin. Telampau prihatin mungkin.

Tak. Saya cakap macam ni bukan sebab saya 'backing' kawan saya tu sebab dia kawan saya. Tak. Saya cakap macam ni sebab saya tak nampak apa perlunya menghebohkan perkara yang mungkin membuka aib orang. Ya,memang perkahwinan itu perlu dihebohkan kalau tak nak nanti berlaku fitnah ke apa ke. Tapi,not in a bad way,after all :)

Stigma kita. Memang susah untuk diubah,kan? Remaja yang kahwin awal adalah remaja yang bermasalah. Takpun,sengaja mengundang padah. Memang ada je kes yang macam ni. Tapi,tak semua. Ada je yang bila kahwin,berjaya. At least,mereka tu ada ikatan yang halal yang membolehkan mereka saling 'ada' untuk each other. Dan perkara yang halal di sisi Allah itu menjanjikan pahala yang banyak,bukan? (huge smile)

Apa-apapun, kalau nak kahwin tu kakak dan abang sekalian (cehh), sila tanya pada diri. Aku ni layak dah ke nak dijadikan imam. Kalau tak berkemampuan lagi nak menjadi imam kepada jemaah ramai,cukup lah sekadar menjadi imam kepada makmum yang satu itu. Tanya pula,aku ni dah cukup segala perisai ke nak back up zauj aku kalau dia hampir robek dikerjakan dunia yang ada masanya tak kira siapa,dihentamnya.
kalau dah rasa layak,silakan. Tak ada siapa boleh halang. Kalau memang itu jodoh dari Tuhan (gigantic smile inserted)

Ditulis oleh pemerhati bebas tak berbayar :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

16 Feb 2013

Segmen : Tangkap Followers SeMaksimum Mungkin!!!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

jom join :
ouh,kena complete those slogan ek? ohkay...

saya suka blog khalid kyle kerana template blog yang kinda mysterious. man in black,zeriously? haha.

p/s: sorry mr. organizer. saya tak ada twitter dan tak join Google+, so, tak boleh nak follow la ya :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

11 Feb 2013

Ini Nenek Saya

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Haa,tu dia tajuk entry tak boleh nak skema lagi dah,haha
Ini Nenek Saya,
mengimbau kenangan dulu-dulu waktu darjah 1,2. Kan cikgu suka ja bagi kerja suruh tulis karangan pasal ibu saya la,bapa saya la,hobi saya la. Know what,I wonder why they won't ask the students to write about their Granma? Kalau tak,saya mesti score punya la. X)

And here is my nenek. cekidaud :)

comel tak nenek saya? :)
Ingat lagi masa sekolah dulu,kalau ada kelas tambahan math,saya selalu tumpang kereta cikgu Zah. On the way balik tu memang borak sakan la dengan cikgu. Dan satu hari tu,tetiba cikgu zah tanya soalan yang..err

c.zah :syaza,umi tak ada ni,siapa yang masak? syaza,ek?
saya  :tak la cikgu. nenek saya la yang masak. kalau nak harapkan saya,kebulur la adik-adik
c.zah :awak panggil nenek awak,nenek eh? moden la nenek awak!
saya  :moden?*muka blur habis
c.zah :ye la.kat kelantan ni,cucu-cucu biasanya panggil nenek tu Mok(Mak). Tak pun Mek.
saya  :owh,macam tu eh cikgu.ada je sepupu saya yang panggil nenek,Mok. Tapi tak ramai la.
*macam ni la lebih kurang our conversation sebelum beralih ke topik lain,borak pasal math pulak :))

Nek,dengar tu,cikgu cakap nenek ni moden,dengar tak? hehehe.
tak apa nek,jadi moden sikit.up to date bak kata orang,asalkan jangan abaikan agama,ya nek!
hahaha* tak apa,nenek tak baca punya ;)

p/s:nenek on the way ke Puchong sekarang. Pergi melawat anak cucu. Btw,enjoy you holiday,nek! :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

"Photo Contest: Aku dan Dia by Blog Paly"

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Actually dah berhari-hari set niat nak join this contest*ceh,siap set niat bagai.
Anyway,let's ceck it out

jom join..tekan sini

what makes me excited to join this kind of contest is that i could refresh the old memories,
and share it with the rest of you.Lagipun,orang cakap,sharing is caring :)
so,gambar yang dipertaruhkan ialah :

how i miss that..blazer :')

Mungkin ada yang akan cakap,
"kenapa blazer?"
 "Mahal sangat ke blazer tu?"
"oissh,hang dah habis barang ke syaza nak dijadikan barang kesayangan?"
"Heh,ni mesti nak menunjuk gambar dia yang bajet gempak je ni?"

Tapi hakikatnya,
Blazer tu la peneman setia selama ni. Blazer yang dah koyak sikit kat bahagian dalam tu la yang menyaksikan jatuh bangun saya dalam satu-satunya bidang yang saya minat dan agak berkebolehan. Pidato,bahas,syarahan agama.You name it,I have encountered them all. And yes,they are my passion all this while. Kalau dah rasa sesak,serabut sangat belajar,memang melalak kat ceropong untuk sampaikan pidato adalah terapi terbaik,believe me :)

Saya ingat lagi,every single time i sat and waited for my turn to deliver a speech,masa tu tangan akan sejuk,kadang-kadang minda jadi beku tiba-tiba. And you know,benda yang akan buat saya rasa selesa dan tenang balik selain Allah's words adalah bila saya masukkan tangan dalam poket blazer tu,and whisper to myself,"tenang-tenang. Everything is going to be okay" :')

Dan,saya dapat rasa yang bila saya pakai blazer tu,umi saya ada kat sisi. Or at least,semangat dia ada bersama saya. Sebab,blazer tu sebenarnya blazer umi. Blazer yang diturunkan kepada anak sulung dia ni.
haha. I shall try it on day in the future :)
so,now, faham tak bila saya cakap saya sayang blazer tu? :)

pen off,

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

10 Feb 2013

Contest teka barang apa

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Lama tak join contest rasanya,
so,here comes the first contest for this month,

click to join

p/s: ternganga jap tengok hadiah dia :D

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's

2 Feb 2013


Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Hye all.
Hlovate? masa first time dengar perkataan tu,i said to myself "Who is Hlovate at the first place,huh?"
"makanan kah? ke jenama minyak wangi yang sedang meningkat naik?"
"haaa..aku tahu*mentol menyala..it's a poem"
poem la sangat cik syaza oii..penulis yang famous amat tahap Tera Giga Mega ni pun engkau tak pernah dengar ke? haisssshh*geleng-geleng kepala

Well,Hlovate is act. such a mysterious author. Tak pernah mendedahkan identitinya kepada umum.*ouh,patutla tak pernah dengar_statement bela diri :))
Even dia tak pernah la nak buka dia punya private life story kepada masyarakat, dia masih mampu menjadi penulis kegilaan ramai termasukla saya*peace

Hlovate = Love and Hate.

Frankly,I don't even know this hlovate's real gender. dia ni lelaki ke perempuan ke? tapi ramai cakap hlovate is a woman. dan kemungkinan tu memang ada. A woman. A doctor or soon-to-be-one. An Overseas student. A music lover. she's great. i mean,real great. Her lines of words memang buat orang sentap. In a positive way,though. sebab dia tulis secara direct,tak pakai la bahasa lapik-lapik ke bertapis ke. Dan point yang dia nak deliver to directly masuk ke otak untuk dicerna akal dan diserap ke hati :)

One thing that differs her from other is that she spills everything yang kinda complicated and make it looks simple. I just love the way she interpret life. and she never forgot to add in Islamic value in all her writing,inspires me to be a better me. thanks,hlovate! Keep on writing good novels and keep on inspiring us :)

no doubt,it's true

p/s: gotta thanks mr k sebab 'kenalkan' saya dengan novel awesome ni semua :)

it's okay to be a freak upon one's eyes...just don't be one upon ALLAH's


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